Beloved John

I have been doing a 90 day devotional study on the apostle John, written by Beth Moore. I am currently on day 50 something and could not be enjoying it more. Honestly, I feel like John and I are best friends and sometimes I have to remind myself that I haven't actually met the beloved disciple of Jesus. But what made me giggle the other night (and probably weird my roommate out) was that my heart just cried out, "Jesus, I love John! He was such an example of love and he knew You!" One of the points that Beth Moore keeps coming back to is that it is because of John's love and relationship with Jesus that he got to be the one whom the revelation was given to.
Right after crying out about John, the Lord said this quickly to my heart, "Yes, and I love him too." At this point I am crying. Jesus intimately loved the apostle John. Oh how I pray that I would be the disciple to recline against the chest of the Almighty.
And though it might be weird that it means so much to me that Jesus loves John, since I have nothing to do with this picture, there is just peace about knowing that it is true. Jesus loves. Intimately. Passionately. With everything that He is, Jesus loves.

Lord Jesus, thank You for Your love. I choose to open my heart up to You and turn my eyes upon You. May I not be ashamed to know You or be associate with You, like John was. I pray that at the end of my life, it can be said that I loved You and You loved me. Ah! The thought of being with You brings me to my knees. And most of all Lord, may I not shy away from intimacy with You. I want to be a girl who always rests her head upon Your chest and hears Your heart beat. I love you. I love you. I love you. 


Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Hebrews 12:1

I like to think that John is surrounding me as a part of the great cloud of witnesses!